Monday, May 31, 2010

jom.

macam pernah tengok je mamat ni.
from where eh?
oh yeah he was on american idol.
took him a while to get a hit hmmmm kay never mind.
:D













Lets pretend baby
That you've just met me
And Ive never seen you before
Ill tell all my friends
That I think you're staring
And you say the same to yours



And oh, well dance around it all night
And then Ill follow you outside
And try to open up my mouth
And nothing comes out right



And I wanna fall in love with you again
I don't have to try
Its so easy
Who needs to pretend?
But because its so funny
Lets just think about it, honey
Lets just fall in love again



Ill call you in three days
Not too soon, not too late
And Ill ask your roommate if you're home
You call me on Thursday
And well hang out all day
Then fall asleep on the phone



And oh, Ill hold your hand when we drive
And well lose track of all the time
And well tell everyone
That we ain't never felt so alive



And I wanna fall in love with you again
I don't have to try
Its so easy
Who needs to pretend?
But because its so funny
Lets just think about it, honey
Lets just fall in love again



Well fall disgustingly fast
And well stop hanging out with friends
And they'll be so offended



And I wanna fall in love with you again
I don't have to try
Its so easy
Who needs to pretend?
But because its so funny
Lets just think about it, honey
Lets just fall in love again
Lets just fall in love again







yay hujan petang.
yay tido.
:D
bye.

Monday, May 24, 2010

eh?

why am I suddenly very busy???
present long case on tuesday.
present seminar on wednesday.
present CFCS visit on Wednesday as well.
hantar CFCS report on Wednesday too.






what the?
not to mention studying medicine, surgery, paeds, O&G, PCM, SPM lagi.
which I havent done yet duh.


:S


adoi.
tension gak kadang kadang.
hmmmm.


L O S T has ended already.
I'm very sad.
I havent watched the finale yet.
:(



okay nak gi mandi tak mandi lagi bye.
:P

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

gastric Ca sangat common. hahaha.

I've been watching this video all day.
hahahaha.
gila smart + funny.
ye saya tau saya malas.
:P









wish that would happen here in the hospital.
tiba tiba semua patient bangun menari and singing.
hahahaha.
macam glee pulak.
okay dah mula merepek dah ni.
:S




bye.

Sunday, May 16, 2010

randomity #95

I like to drive cars with huge side mirrors.
*jakun mode*











no that's not a metaphor for anything.
:O
hahaha.






p.s. surgery next!
*scared*
finals after that!
*uber scared*





Saturday, May 8, 2010

baca ni lagi best daripada study. hehe.

I saw this on Facebook and it was interesting so I letak sini lah.
hehehe.



It's from The Star's online blog.
which can be found here.
it's about the "hot" issue regarding Malaysian doctors leaving the country to work overseas.
:O


Why we left and why we will continue to leave...
Posted by: MS Mohamad

I read an interesting article today about a few prominent figures addressing their concern over the increasing UKM and UM medical graduates who have left the country to continue their medical practice overseas.

After reading the news for 3 times, I called a very close friend, an MD (UKM) graduate to ask his opinion on how the news might have affected him. He has been working in Singapore for more than a decade as a Consultant Surgeon with a certain sub-specialty

"Why be a slave in your own country, when you are a king in another?" He replied.

Indeed, if anybody would want to find a reason why all of us left, either after housemanship, after being a specialist, or even after sub specializing, and now, even prior to doing housemanship, they need not look at our payslip, or the wealth that we have gained overseas, but only to the Medical System that has been rotting in the ignorance and politic-based stupidity that Malaysia has been well-known for (in the medical field).

I have served the system for nearly 2 decades of my career, waiting for it to improve for so long, and only finding myself in despair, quitting with a 24-hour notice and serving abroad. The system is, in my opinion, keeping doctors, since the beginning of their career as House Officers to the end of it, in the lowermost priority. When I was working there, doctors are so ill-treated, while the nurses and the medical assistants are overpowering us.

I still remember the days when I was doing seeing patients and rounds as an MO, while the staff nurses would mind their own business, having breakfast in the pantry, or having gossip chats at their own leisure. My House Officers would then have to do merely all the labour-work, up to the extent of setting intravenous drips, and serving medications. If I am to expect the nurses, my patients would have been dead, or the work would have been too slowly or incompletely done.

When I was a House Officer, I had to run down 4-5 floors just to review a blood investigation of a dying dengue patient. The ward staff would either be nowhere around, or will say that he is busy (busier than the doctor?) or the answer I got at that time:

"Doktor nak cepat, doktor turun sendirilah, gaji doktor lagi banyak dari saya"

Even when I was a Specialist, the staff nurses had to be called again and again just to make sure the management plan for the patient would be done. I was already used to answers from them:

“I’m busy with something else"

“My shift is already over"

...it was routine for me.

The Medical Assistants were worse. They would hide behind their so-called boss, the Head of Medical Assistant. They feel hiding behind him would make them not under our jurisdiction, that we have no power to instruct them in managing the patient, that they have power to manage own their own. I've seen them giving medications not as we prescribed, performing procedures without our knowledge, as if they are the actual "Doctors". They are in their own world, and we have to do their job, taking blood, labelling samples, and even cleaning gadgets from the procedures that we have done.

Oh, but the ministry loves this group. They even let them run a clinic now, instead of upgrading the clinics already run by doctors. The government feels that the MAs are very important and should never be ill-treated by those big bad doctors. One time when I was a District Hospital Medical Officer, I was conducting a delivery of a baby. An MA insisted that I remove my car which was block-parking his car. I answered through the phone that I was busy.

He came to the labor room and yelled "Semua orang pun sibuk jugak, macamlah doktor seorang yang sibuk!”

It is insulting that an MA or a staff nurse claims that they are BUSY, as busy as a doctor? As a Malaysian Doctor, I have even worked for 72 hours straight. I have experienced working until my 6 month old daughter did not recognize me at the end of the week.

Is that how busy they are? I am very sure that they are so busy, that they can only spend 2 hours at the nearby Mamak stall, or can only leave at 5:10 PM instead of 5, or can only have 1 hour of lunch.

The management staffs are worse. I have to beg and plead so that I can get my on-call claims, of RM25 per 48 hours of work. While sitting in an air-conditioned office, they will at their own leisure, process my call claims so that I will receive them by the next decade.

The state health or Hospital Director would just give another inspirational talk (of bollocks) on team effort and beauty of teamwork.

That is how Malaysian doctors are treated in the government sector: without respect, without dignity and without significance. Why?

It is because we are bound by ethics to try our best to save lives, despite how ill-treated we are. We hardly have time to complaint because we are too busy or tired, and we would rather spend the precious time resting or seeing our loved ones. The burden of trying to save lives is on our shoulders alone. No MAs or Staff nurses would shoulder it with us. They have their own bosses: the Sisters, Matrons, or Head of MAs, which job description is to ensure that the big bad doctors will not ask their underlings to do extra work.

This is how the Malaysian Ministry of Health have treated their doctors. I am very sure that in each and every doctor, there is a slowly-burning patience in serving the Malaysian people, which will eventually fade and cause them to surrender to serving a place that treats them better.

A few colleagues who graduated from UK choose to serve there:

"The pay is more, and we get the respect we deserve"

Another works in Brunei:

“Here the staff nurses respect Malaysian doctors, and they are very co-operative" (He ended up marrying one)

A few are consultants in Singapore (working with me):

"Here we are treated well, we spearhead the management, and every else do their work to the best of their capabilities".

A few even enjoys working in Indonesia:

“The work-load is horrible since there are a lot of patients, but we are well respected by every hospital personnel" (They have migrated there for nearly a decade)

I am sure that people will see doctors as power-hungry individuals who want to be the boss in the hospital. Trust me, after having graduated 6-7 years of medical school, earning a DEGREE, and subsequently MASTERS, and SUBSPECIALITY, you would expect a degree of respect and being considered important. We are trying our best to improve patient's quality of life, or making sure he lives another day. Is it too much to ask from the system that we are important?

I find that Malaysia is the only country that is making doctors' lives miserable and treated like rubbish. It was never about the pay in the first place. It is about the treatment we are getting and the false political-based promises. Do you know that the so-called circular about doctors can have the day off after working 24 hours straight released JULY 2009 is not yet implemented? Do you know that the raise of UD 41 to 44 does not involve every doctor in the government service?

We are waiting for improvement. We have waited a long time when we were working in the system. Somewhere along the line we decided to leave and wait outside the system. Until the system changes, we will continue to work overseas, in countries which are appreciative of us. Trust me, Malaysian-graduate doctors are considered highly skilful and competent in neighbouring countries, and the 15 % brain drain is more significant than you think.

We will return when the system prioritize us and gives us the quality of life we deserve.

If it stays the same, Malaysian Hospitals would end up having Staff nurses and Medical Assistants as "Doctors", and we would have to send patients to Indonesia for an appendicectomy.

Hear our voice. We hardly speak, but will usually fade away from conflict (and fly to another place).






that was fun kan?

okay sambung tidur study.

Thursday, May 6, 2010

randomity #94

if I ever get the chance to see One Republic perform live.
I would probably cry.
:(











layan gila lagu dia.
sigh.
haha. kan best kalau boleh nyanyi macam dia?
:O




okay nite.
:D

alololo sweet nya.

you have maybe seen this video making the usual rounds on the web already.
via Friendster, Facebook, Myspace, Yahoo or whatever.
but sweet is it not??
:(






too bad the cat didnt wake up the end.
I guess you can't always get happy endings.
:(
yes it is safe to say I'm a cat person.
nyohohohoho.
speaking of cats.




misha/misya!
it's a he by the way.
:S


comel!
hahaha.
he's one of my batch mate's punya kucing.
I dunno where he got it from.
hmmm.



end of posting test next week!
:(
finals makin dekat.
takut gila.
sigh.





p.s. 3 of toes currently don't have nails.
as I have removed them as it was damaged.
yes it does look gross.
ewwww.



p.p.s. setiap kali balik ceramah mesti rasa semangat and inspired.
doesn't last long enough though.
:S





haiyo.
bye.












Tuesday, May 4, 2010

perlukan awak sekarang :(

i like this song.
is it true??
mmmm hhhmmmmmm.
i do i do i dooooo-ohhhh.
:S





Picture perfect memories scattered all around the floor
Reachin' for the phone 'cause I can't fight it anymore
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now

Another shot of whiskey can't stop looking at the door
Wishing you'd come sweeping in the way you did before
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one, I'm a little drunk and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now

woah woaaah.

Guess I'd rather hurt than feel nothin' at all

It's a quarter after one I'm all alone and I need you now

And I said I wouldn't call but I'm a little drunk and I need you now

And I don't know how I can do without

I just need you now

I just need you now

Ooo, baby, I need you now



hmmmm.
miao.



jap or do you like this one better?




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she looks like Emma Watson aka Herm-own-ninny kan?
:O
hehehe.
perdy. *giggles* and sings really well too.



okay bye.

Sunday, May 2, 2010

talk about bombshells.

my life is like one long soap opera.
sigh.












god please give my family (me included!) strength.
please.